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SKULL NEOCITIES

if i am eating something small that i can pick up with my hands i must eat them two at a time. two fries two pretzels two pringles two almonds

mu faucikng head hurt

i am placid, complacent, obedient, sedated, tranquilized. it is niceeeeeeeee

wooden it be nice

yeah beastie boys it WOULD be nice

yeah beach boys i DO gotta fight for my right to party

slurp slurp slurp slurp slurp slrup slurp

oh yea i forgot i was gonna rwrite on here

anyway so the other day i was brushin my teef in the single stall bathorom and man i could hear some kids fuckin!!!! so i have a bit of a radiohead creep moment... wait no its more liek a radiohead JUST moment. wait. its most like the scene in evangelion where shinji goes to the movies and theres a couple there kissing and theyre the only people in the theater. thats what its like.

i wish i were a bird

i wishe i could kisse a fishe

my eye is twitching again ;_; this shit SUX!!!!!!!!

i am so placid and tranquilized and obedient and sedated and complacent and calm

8==D

heh lol peenis

kisse a fishe

i wishe i could kisse a fishe

happy sythesizer kimi no

sorry i dont have anything profound to say today i hope these shitposts can suffice

VIVA VIVA HAPPY CHU CHU CHU

otaku culture is the most dangerous drug on the planet. viva viva happy

OH MIKU IM TRYING TO VIVA VIVA HAPPY BUT I STILL WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!

roki roki roll roku roku roll

i should go missing

anyway im burning a mixtape right now ooooooo yeaaaaaaa

fug i need to eat smth im very hungy

I am dead and this is hell

typing from my phone because it's 5am and I don't wanna wake up my roommates. I've been playing this really cool game lately called "can't sleep" it's really cool haha lol so cool

holy shit I hate my life so much I haven't been able to sleep lately I have a goddamn cold I have a massive fucking headache rn my jaw is fucked up my stupid fucking retainer hurts my cheeks my lips are dry and I CAN'T FUCKING SLEEP dear god what is the point in living if I can't sleep

and I have to do shit today except I think I might email my professors and tell them I'm taking the day off bcuz I feel terrible right now and I gotta fucking sleep I NEED TO SLEEP Ivr been awake unconsenting since uhhhhhhhh 12

this is it I'm going to die for real this time oh god oh shit oh fuck

don't cry for me. Oh my fucking god this sucks I don't even have any fighting spirit right now I can't fight the powah I'm gonna fucking die

ohhhhhhhhhhhhh and it's so fucking windy outside the windows are rattling n shit fuck I should drop out and move to Ireland

OHHHHH FUCK AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I am dead and this is hell

really wishing I uhh uhh uhh idk wish I was home, wish I had a million dollars, wish I was a fat housecat, wishe I could kisse a fishe, wish I was AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK OH GOD IM NEVER GONNA MAKE IT

I'M NEVER GONNA MAKE IT I'M NEVER GONNA MAKE IT I'M GONNA DIE A HOLLOW CARCASS WHEN YOU FIND ME THE SCAVENGERS WILL HAVE EATEN ALL MY SOFT FLESH. LIKE A CICADA SHELL THAT'S HOW YOU'LL FIND ME DRY AND EMPTY AND BRITTLE AND THEN MY SHELL WILL BE CRUSHED..... LIKE A CANDLE IN THE WIND OR SOMETHING. AND I'M NOT EVEN HAVING ANY EXISTENTIAL ISSUES RIGHT NOW I JUST HATE BEING ALIVE BECAUSE I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay it's time to turn off caps lock. I need to drink myself to death. I don't drink but I need to drink myself to death. I need a dynamite cigar that will blow my head off I need a 2x4 with one single long nail hammered in to pierce my forehead. I'm never gonna make it

I am a pathetic decrepit corpse and I cannot do anything except lie in bed and wait until ..... idk. It's all so tiresome.

i have GOT to get normaler

IM GONNA MAKE YOU PROUD NORIKO TAKAYA!!!!!!!!!!!

everyday i try so hard to トップをねらえ! you better believe me. its so hard but i gotta aim for the top gunbuster okay???? sometimes im miserable yes but i just need to aim for the top gunbuster okay????? im gonna make you so proud noriko takaya. shes just like me she was a loser bad at things but then she worked hard and aimed for the top.... and thats gonna be me too!!!!!!!!! i may be a loser right now but if i work hard i will make it to the top and make noriko proud!!!!!!!!!!!!

how are you guys doing it. how do you get the motivation and drive and willpower to do things. is that not like the hardest thing imaginable? how do you keep going? im sorry noriko takaya im not making you proud right now ;_; im not aiming for the top ;_;

how do you get the willpower to continue doing thhings its just unfathomable. we really have to wake up tomorrow dont we. i just dont get it. there are things i need to do but i just have no drive to do them!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

one night in bangkok yeah i'll show you one night with my bang cock!

i just kind of suck im a loser, im really not good at anything that will give me money to live. god and then "well why dont you just learn" i would love to learn but i have no motivation or energy. god i sound like such a fucking loser.

i wish i could do things yknow; and even if i could do things this gobshite country is a shithole and i wont be able to afford living in this shitty fucking goddamn country. i could have a salary and still not be able to afford anything becasue fucking landlords jacking up prices and jacking each other off. and every goddamn company needs more money and needs to bleed the rest of us dry. this country was never great and i dream of the day i can leave. but its not like ill be able to afford to leave so im stuck in this goddamn patch of dirt.

oh elton john i wish i could become a teenage idol and shoot myself in the head....... uh....... i mean.... shoot myself to fame.

i hate videogames i hate anime i hate music i hate sleeping i hate drawing i hate html i hate dreaming i hate talking to people i hate people looking at me i hate reading i hate writing i hate otaku culture its just all so tiresome

oh PLEASE youve gotta cut me loose of this one room dive

ill be a teenage idol, just igve me a break PLEASE

im sewing my teeth, like im piercing my teeth with the needle and sweing thread into my teeth

dinka dink dinka dink dink dink dink....a!

dinka dinka dinka dinka dink

i dont even have anything to despair about!!! well i mean i do but i dont really want to write a novel like i used to, it would be just rambling stream of consciousness right? well i mean this is all stream of consciousness but what EVER!!!

hm... art and such uguu uguu

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

naw i dont have the blues enough to write in here right now

i would hol horse

yeah i would hol horse

new anime i just made up: its called "going to chicago shouldnt be this difficult!!" its where a group of fellas try to go to chicago for thr tradidional american spring festival of "st patricks day" but hijinks happen along the way. episode 2 is when they take a wrong turn and end up in a barren wasteland where ruins of a lost city are (ohio) and have to rely on the geek character to build a gps from scavenged scrap metal. episode 3 they keep going but their car breaks down in the endless corn field but luckily a group of ronin (vietnam veteran biker gang) finds them and takes them to a traditional miswestern bar and grill, yknow with the building built in 1932 with a jukebox and only sells alchohol and fried food, with pictures of local baseball teams lined up on the wall. one of the girls from the chicago party falls in love with ne of the ronin. episode 4 theres more ronin taking them to a car dealership......... yeah what EVER

sorry i stopped caring halfway through writing that.

i would also kakyoin

if i end up going this whole summer without a job im going to initiate a third impact on myself. im going to create human instrumentality for myself. im going to go to gensokyo. im going to be featured in an episode of wonder egg priority. im going to pull an elton john and brother im NOT talking about a crocodile rock.

please god i just want to work i have passion i have skill i have a love please just hire me to fix clothes or to sew clothes or costumes or whatever you want just let me sew for money.

"thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch" "thank you for applying we'll be in touch"

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAA

i dont wanna fight the power anymore i just wanna sleep

i dont really wanna do anything at all i just wanna lay down and do nothing

call me the happy smiler the way i smile happily

step outside the house i got a style: silly

quintuple bunny party in my own front yard

yeah i aim for the top and play my trump card

dj smile on the beat you know im full of love

got a pile of hope you know that im proud of

instrumental break

peace and joy is what its all about; decrease my fear, envy, hate and doubt

seeing flowers for hours gives me all i need,

empower rain showers, even help the weeds

i keep my garden clean and my thoughts cleaner

remind myself the grass aint always greener

my tendrils are detecting an anomaly. something is sure to occur soon

at 6AM in the AM in the MORNING, at SIX AM IN THE MORNING. I am awoken by the ROTC doing their marches and doing their chants or whatever as loud as humanly possible. shut the fuck up ``please" HOLY SHIT i didnt know i could respect them even less but i am astounded. i am still angry.

that literally put me in such a bad fucking mood AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

anyway im back at umiversity and im not going insane like last year which is always good. im joining lots of clubs n shit. talking to my professsors n shit. goin to the library n shit. readingbooks n shit. im so fcuking normal its like breathing. i love being normal.

i dont snooze all the time anymore. well i mean i snoozed TODAY because the fucking rotc guys woke everyone up at 6am so i went back to bed after classes, but thats different. i decreased my dosage and now im not so eepy all the time. unfortunately i do get random spikes of nervous more often, but im also much less eepy. oh well

JIBUN WO

SEKAI SAE MO

KAETE SHI MAA SO NAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ohhhhh code geass waht a show

se no

demo sonna ja dame mou sonna ja hora kokoro wa shinka suruyo motto motto

fuwafuwari fuwafuwaru

kamisama arigatouuu