oh god what is this page uhhh idk just where i fling out verbal assault at your ocular devices. the basement of the website, where the cursed texts are located. everything i say on here is strait from my head.
so jus twere i rwight random things
i ve lost everythignggg EVERYTHINGGGG EVERYTHING THAT MATTERS TO ME MATTERS IN THE WORLD
i wish that i could turn back time, cuz now the guilt is all mine, cant live w/o the trust from those you love
it ALLL returns to nothin it just tumbling tumbling tumbling downnnnnn.
i am going to drop out of school bc i dont feel like goin no more. what will i do after that idk, i'll cross that brigde when i come 2 it. i'm here for a good time not a long time
i am droppin out bc 1) i cant wear hats in school which rlly pisses me off. its a kuso rule of our culture and i hate it. i cant wear my friggin suwako hat to school and that pisses me off
#2. so they (when i say 'they" i mean like the ppl in charge of the school) give us like only 3 choices when we gotta answer "what r u gonna do after hs" and the choices r always college, trade school, or military. i dont wanna do nun of that. im gonna make up my own 4th choice just 2 spite them. idk what its gonna be, but i'll figure that out later. like i said, i'm here for a good time, not a long time.
#3. so uh yea idk when im ever gonna need 2 know how to solve quadriatics or unit circle stuff. like gosh that stuffs interesting and yea i like that stuff but god when am i gonna use it/?????
so basically im goin thru my "edgy rebellious teen doesn't want to fit in the "cookie cutter" life" phase rn, but man i dont care. the whole system is a sham. im not goin 2 college, i dont feel like it! i'll do whatevr i want, this is my life!! im gonna drop out just to spite ppl tellin me what to do. I'll do whatever i please! if that includes running 4 president with a budget of like 40 dollars, so be it!!!
i mean theyre always tellin you "aw you can b whatevr you wanna be" but they just mean "be whatevr JOB you wanna be". man screw that, i'll take it literally and be whatever i want!
if i wanna drop out and become a hermit livin in the backwoods of the upper peninsula livin off rainwater, then thats what im gonna be
the only thing keeping me sane is playing "pauls boutique" a million times per day. god that album is absolute gold.
"torches" is rlly good too.
i went to snowcoming on 2/16/19 and i had a good time. the music was godawful, but i went 2 dinner w my date b4 and had a rlly nice time.
i got a bf, i love him very much
oh my GOD pauls boutique is absolutely amazing
my brother mains as meiling in soku and idk if he mains them but he plays as marisa (master) and the yorigamis (slave) in aocf
we got a usb keyboard so my brother and i can play aocf 2gethr now. bc netplay dont work on the same ip, but using vs player and changin the controls, it works. i had to switch to wasd to move and jkl for attacks, though. but whatevr
i main sakuya in soku, and reisen (master) and mokou(slave) in aocf. i dont know if reisen and mokou is a good combination, but whatevr
i like these lyrics
no one wants to hear you cuz yr rhymes are damn frantic
home boy, throw in the towel, your girl got DICKED by ricky powell
step to the rhythm step step to the rhyme, i got an open mind so why dont you all get inside
shes got a gold tooth, you know shes hardcore. she'll show you a good time then she'll show you the door
also i rlly like "year and a day" from "b boy bouillabaisse". i dont know how to pronounce "bouillabaise"
i read "columbine" by dave cullen earlier this (school) year, and it mentioned the unabomber and i didnt know who that was so i read about him and i forgot who he was the sec i got off the wikipedia article and i still dont know who he is
I LOOOVE YOUUUUUU JEEEESUS CHRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIST
J EEEESUS CHRIST I LOOOOOOOOVE YOU YESS I DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
oh my god im so in love w/ my bf. i love him so much!!!
my head hurts
kinda weird how i wanna drop out bc i rembr back in like elementary school i was all like "im gonna go 2 harvard and bcome a scientist and win all the nobel prizes!!!" and i was super focused on school, yknow? like i was always worryin about grades n stuff like that. then i guess i realized it was all kuso and just gave up. like i just stopped caring about school bc oh my god i dont care anymore. i just want to do whatever i want to do. i just gave up on school because i just dont care anymore. jesus christ i dont care anymore. oh my god i dont care.
i just dont care anymore. i'm gonna drop out just to spite everyone tryna push me onto this path of "go to college and get a nice cushy job and become a wage slave to some dope and have a family and then retire" like god thats so boring. first of all, even if i were to work, i'd never be able to reitre anyway.
the ultimate petty move
like oh my god that might have worked for all these boomers, yknow, and thats cool if it worked for them. but its not workin 4 me. like man im glad they coulda gone 2 college and get a job easily n stuff like that. but like thats not gonna happen for me. like first of all i dont want to be a slave to a boss or a slave to some godforsaken company.
and also i dont want to be a kgilbgillion dollars in debt bc i went to college.
i really love a lot of ppl in my life. its important to let the people you love know that you love them. like just go up 2 whoever you love and just say somthin like "man i rlly love and appreciate you and im glad yr in my life"
i did that 2day and tbh i rlly dont know why i did. well i did bc i love my homies. but like all of a sudden i was all like "i love and apreciate you" to mi amigos. i was totally whack 2day.
unfortunately i couldnt say that to all the ppl i love 2day, bc i dont have any classes w. them, or they werent at school today, but i'll let them know 2morrow
i cant believe we cant wear hats in school.
what do i do now
right i forgot i was gonna play StB
i rlly like the album "starry cat" by starry cat. i cant make out what theyre sayin but i like the music
theres an EP "home - slow" and its rlly good and i havent listened to it in a while so im gonna do that
ew i dont want to do work
i think im losin my mind this time, this time im losin my mind, said i think im losin my mind this time, this time im losin my mind
so you know what sux?? i actualyl have to do work!!!!
honk GONK HONK GONK
so whatcha want???????????????
i speak fluent guitar
but i dont play guitar.
like i open my mouth and guitar noises come out
so uh yesterday uh i was at the court of honor for my brother and uh i was talking w one of the adult leaders and uh it turns out they were in orchestra and they asked me why we tune to "a" and i said bc of the nazis bc i read that somewhere and im lookin at it now and it turns out thats a conspiracy. but when i said nazis they all laughed and i laughed too bc i know it sounded silly
a clown goes honk honk, glowns go gonk gonk
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm can i just take it easy and drop out????????/
gonk gonk gonk gonk gonk gonk gonk
awight so uhhhh greeks pronounce the letter "j" as a "y", so they prounounce junior as yunior, right?? i think. anywhay, so uhhhhh the trojan war, right? we say trojan with english "j", "j" as in juliett. and the city is called troy, like tray with an "o", right? so ppl from troy are called trojans, right?? and if what wikipedia says is true, then trojans spoke greek. so bc ppl from troy pronounced "j" as "y", wouldnt it be more right to say trojans as "troyans"???
i also like "live at pj's"
rlly tired rn
dont wanna translate my site rn. i was gonna, but i rlly dont feel like it
lmao whos michael cohen?? michael like mikhali??? like mikhali gorbachev tear down this wall?? dude thats wild. if you rearrange the letters in gorbachev you get cohegrbav, wchich is pretty close to cohen.
double spoiler is HARD w hatatatatatatattatatatatatatatatatatattatatatatatatatatatattatatatate bc her zoom SUXXXXXXXX
also i'll be takin mighty fine pics, but then it gives me a GRAY CAMERA MARK, sayin "oh these pictures suck i should take em again" like shut up those weere fine!!!!!
poetry in motion, cocout lotion, had to diss the girl bc she got 2 emotional. are you experienced little girl?? i wanna know what goes on in yr little girl world. cuz im on yr mind, its often you get me. i'll take yr pride 4 a ride if you let me.
oh god when did trig get so hard?????????? it was so fun when it was just sohcahtoa, what the echks up with sine waves?????????????
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh law of sines????????? ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
tan waves???????? how the hec do those work???? can i call those waves????
oh god whats happeneingn?
so uh doogle for goodle is goin on. "what do you hope 4 the future"??????? uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh idk man i just want to chill and be comfy. no wait its actually "when i grow up i hoep" yea same thing whatevr
i had a dream where yatsuhashi tsukumo died and i kept saying "i cant believe yatsuhashi is dead. she was very pretty"
oh god its already 5:00
you gotta fight
for your right
hey do you wanna drink a cocktail????? bc i sure do
okay so theres this drink i made up called a "milk carlton"
you make it by mixing milk and water together, then adding unripe strawberries w/ the leaves. like you cut up the strawberries but not unleaf them.
ive never had it
no its not a spelling mistake its called the milk carlton not the milk carton
mmmmmmmmmm im super tired
I HAVE BECOME THE PHYSICAL EMBODIMENT OF SPITE AND PETTINESS. JUNKO'S GOT NOTHIN ON ME
OH MY GOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
caps lock is cruise control for cool btw ;))))))))))
ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh my godddddd
frikkin love fried rice
whatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhatwhat do i do now?????????????????
oh my GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD im SPITEFUL and ANGRY and im gonna start a revolution. just you wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ADNGRYYYYYY
ahhhhh i ate too much friedd rice am feel sick
so umm when i was in texas i had this dream. so i was in russia telling a russian guy how to fix his countrys infrastructure bc his building kept collapsing and it was kinda funny bc as i was telling him things, like 2 buildings fell down and he got really mad. but anyway i left him later bc he was being rude, so i was walking aroun this field and there were these shrines for deceased ppl scattered around the field. so i went up 2 one and there was a small picture of some lady, idk who it was. but i said to myself "i shouldnt screw around here" so i started walking back to a parking lot to go home. as i was walking, i turned around and i saw a blind homeless man. for some reason he was tryna find me but i said "he cant find me he's blind" so anyway i kept walking and i walked past a shrine and peeked in and the homeless man was there, then he tried to attack me and he kept finding me and i was like "what the heck" so i attacked him back and i scratched up his face, but he never really attacked me he just kinda slightly hit my face, so i totally overreacted. but anyway i kept scratching and i saw his face close up and it kinda looked like that one "i am god" image from x. then there was a message that said "sometimes what you do in retaliation is more hurtful than what people do to you beforehand" or something like that. then i woke up thinking "oh my god i think i'm going to die soon".
it was a rlly freaky dream.
haaaaaaa you knwo hat time it is??? alsmot time 4 school 2 be done!! golly the year went by fast, prolly bc i got a kgnibllion snow days in 2nd semester. its gonna be niiiiiiiice to take another break and become a NEET over the summer!!!!!
im becoming the personification of the wham rap. is that a good thing?? hmmmmm.........
gonna buy a record player!! so frikkin exicsted!!!! my parents are gonna hear pauls boutique blaring at 3 am every day, so they better prepare for that!!
i've been doin tons of housework for a while to get enough money to buy one, and a few records, cuz i don't got a job!!!! I may not have a job, but i have a good time!! i take pleasure in leisure, i believe in joy!!!
alright i gotta tell you guize a story. its kinda gruesome/gory so just a warning 4 those of you sensitive about that sorta stuff.
so last month, i was in a production of les mis, right? if you gots to know, i was in the chorus. but anyway, after the final performance, we were striking the set, right? there were 3 performances that day, so we were all rlly tired. anyway, there was this guy cutting sum pvc pipe w/ an electronic saw (is that what it is? i dont know) but anyway the edges of the pipe were kinda jagged, pointy, sharp, ya know? so i took the pipe to go, idk dispose of it, i suppose. as i was walkin away, i was throwing it up into the air and catching it. but i forgot the edges were sharp, so i tried to catch it once and the edge cut my finger DEEP. it rlly hurt and there was blood spilling out everywhere and it was cut so deep!! so i immediately got overdramatic. my friend saw me and was like "dood we gotta get you a bandaid" or sumthin like that. i was overreacting cuz i was super tired, saying stuff like "oh god i'm just like eponine theres blood everywhere" anyway the guy w/ the buzz saw gave me a bandaid as i was walking past him, idk how he knew but i guess he just did. then my other fren said i neeedd 2 wash it so i took the bandaid off (mistake), and washed it in the dressing room sink. then i realized i had no bandaid so i went the rest of the night w/ a paper towel wrapped around my finger. i told my ma about this whole thing, like a week after it happened, and i told her "i think its gonna scar" and my ma said "if you get an cut you think is gonna scar, you gotta let me know about it when it happens", which is something i did not do.
okay so if you skipped the last paragraph you can keep reading here bc theres no more gory stuff.
anyway, after the thing above happened, the cast was gonna go to an ihop and, idk just hang around i guess. so anyway i asked my ma and i know she wanted to say no, bc it was late, and it was far from where we lived, and she was worried abut me getting a ride home, but i convinced her to say yes. so anyway i asked my friends if they could give me a ride home and they said "yea sure" so anyway we went to ihop, and ~15 minutes later their ma comes around and says theyre goin home in like 30 minutes 4 whatevr reason, so i asked "you're givin me a ride home right?" and she said yea where do you live and so i told her. then she says oh we live like 3 minutes away from here, and you live super far away, so i dont think we can. and i said "okay thats alright". so anyway i dont havea ride home and i just start laughin so hard, man. because i made so many dumb choices that day, it was just so frikin funny. my frinds are just kinda like "dude are you okay" and im like "yea its just so funny". so anyway i text my dad to see if he can pick me up, and he's very kind so he said sure, and so my dad pickd me up at 12:30 am from ihop. it was very nice of him to do that, i was very thankful. also he told me that in the parking lot for the bank next to the ihop, there were 2 ppl making out in their car, so that happend also.
alright thats enough stries for today, i'm ptryy tired and also i cant think of anymore
got arrested at a mardi gras for jumpin on the boat, my man mca's got a beard like a billy goat!!!
you heard my style, i think you missed the point.... its the joint!!
so for a while there was a horrible stretch of time where there wasnt pauls boutique in full on youtube, the guy who made a playlist had his channel removed. but some1 uploaded the full album!! here is is!
i think im driving my ma crazy w/ my "drop out, dont go to college, dont work, here for a good time; not a long time" rhetoric.
high plains drifter, but im never in a hurry!!
oh GOD im so frikkin stressed!!!!!!!!!!!! im so frikkin PARANOID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
these are trying times rn..... smh
all i really want is for someone to offer me a nice egg in this trying time
im thinkin of makin a list of albums i like. chart?? are those charts?? do i chart those things??? idk man, but i gotta keep track of them
so frikkin paranoid, man
sometimes you gotta be the one to offer yourself a nice egg in those trying times
AUEHCH i dont even know what to think
so a while ago i had a dream where i was on a small pirate ship wit h some friends. anyway we were just dinkin around on the ship and all of a sudden we found boo radley and we're all like "dude!! its boo radley!!" and so i went up to him and i wanted to say the famous line (hey boo) and i was just enough awake to tell my dream self "alright you gotta say the line" but i screwed it up and i said "hey radley" instead.
my bangs are gettin way too long i gotta cut them soon.
so a few weeks ago i was in a production of footloose, right? if you got to know i was in the chorus. but anyway, we were doin our dress rehersal, and "almost paradise" was goin on right then. if ya dont know thats the sceen where the two leads kiss, right? so anyway i was hangin out downstairs (cuz our green room is under the stage), and most ppl were upstairs backstage gettin ready for the next scene, which we were all in. so anyway b4 i go up, i go in2 another large room downstairs to get som water, right? (cuz that big room is where we put all of our stuff n hang around n do whatevre) so anyway i walk into the room, see two ppl makin out, then turn 360 degrees and walk out.
i mean holy christ they were just in the middle of the room, they didnt even try to hide themselves. and of course it was during almost paradise.
dos monos - dos city
idk what theyr sayin, but it soudns cool.
dut dut dut dut VRWEEEE VRWOOOOOM VRWEEEEE VRWOOOOM
okay so i got a story but its got some body horror in it, so if yr sensitive about that just a heads up, ya know?
so anyway on wednesday (7/31/19) i was at my friends house and she was showin me some cool disco light thing she got for her birthday. also it had bluetooth so we were playin music and starin at the lights, right? so anyway i say to her "yo you should play footloose so i can do my sick lil dance, yea?" and she says yea sure so she plays footloose, and at the very beginning of the chorus, i start doin my sick lil dance, but i loose my footing (haha funny) and anyway i land on my ankle. so theres this huge POP or CRUNCH or whatever, and i fall on the ground, writhing in pain (as batman changes back into bruce wayne). but yea i start wailing in agony, but also laughing bc its rlly funny. and my friend is laughing cuz its rly funny, but then she gets me an ice pack and it hurts less. the ironic part though is that i became too footloose and now my foot is loose from its socket. but yea maybe i broke my ankle, but whatever bc i kept walking on it and then we got our other friend and biked down to the river and dinked around there.
okay so if you skipped that part you can keep reading now
it doesnt hurt that much anymore, i just gotta b careful.
been awhile since i've crakced open this cold one, but w/o the boys bc none of my irl boys have websites
it's 1am rn, feelin pretty comfy
and when i say cracked open this cold one, i mean REALLY cracked it open
you guys played wily beast and weakest creature yet??? wait this is touhou page material.
a few weeks ago i went to a record show w/ my dad, and i found a copy of pet sounds. so we buy it, bring it home, put it on the turntable, and guess what??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa it comes w/o sloop john b!!!!! SMH i have such bad luck w/ records
school is starting soon, that suxx. i got orientation on uhhh thurdsay? yea thursday. god i hate how the shifted the shcool year to start earlier, cuz now its frikkin HOT in the building. i just hope this year we'll get a bunch of snow days
sort of. i mean yea that week off was totally ill, but it got me totally seething about climate change and how ppl are gonna ignore it bc "it was rlly cold, wtf are you talkin about dork" god that pisses me off to no end. anyway, i just wish i could have a week off from snowdays w/o the climate change
aaaa i cant wait till it starts snowing again, i love winter. maximum comfy season. i just hope that since i can drive now, i wont develop a burning hatred for winter, just like every other adult in my life.
like man, if you say "boy i love snow", every adult in a 5 mile radius will run (bc they cant drive in snow) up to you and start talkin about how "OMGOMGOMG winter is LITERALLY the worst season bc driving in snow suxxx and you gotta shovel and its cold and i have to do christmas things and i have to watch the kids on snow days and i have to and i have to and i have to...."
like GOD just learn to have some fun you wet blankets. every winter, without fail, that scenario unfolds, and i die a little more inside
anyway how'd we get talkin about winter?? its still august, i still got my summer playlist up, im still playing city pop late at night doing the most summery things.
so heres a summery thing. i went to the beach a few weeks ago w/ my ma and my amigo. we brought an inflatable w/ us, but we discovered it had a hole, so we just kinda let it sit at our spot while my amigo and i went around and did whatevr. anyway, we come back and my ma says she let some kids borrow our floatie, and i look over in the water and theres a family playin w/ our floatie and just... it made me real happy, ya know? they were just havin a good time, we were havin a good time, we were all happy. sharing stuff makes you feel happy, ya know? its a nice memory, gotta write it here so i wont forget
aw whatever, im gonna talk about winter somemore. last year, in february, i went on a trip to chicago and also iowa. it was for something out of school, but i had 2 of my amigos w/ me. anyway i remember riding the charter bus, playin "love trip" by takako mamiya, watchin episodes of initial D, man it was comfy. iowa is max flyover, but it can be pretty comfy.
i rlly remmebr the snow and how cold it was, but whatevr. also in iowa we stayed in volunteers houses, and i rembr the house we stayed in had the most comfy mattress ever. it was so sawft and cushy, i wish i could find another mattress like that.
in chicago, we saw ragtime on stage, and boy did i love it. well not really chicago, some small city just outside of chicago, but close enouff.
one of my friends and i kept driving my other friend crazy by constantly saying the "number 15, burger king foot lettuce"... uhh... monologue? oh right i also played "torches" by foster the people a lot on the way to iowa
speaking of chicago, every year or so my ma and i take a trip to chicago for a yarn and fiber show, and so i remember one year, after we took down our booth and checked out our hotel, we went to a nearby ikea. my ma got sorta lost on the way, so we arrived 10 minuted before it closed. so we did a blitzkreig through the store, gettin what we needed , but anyway after we checked out i saw the ikea candy and asked my ma if we could get a bag for the trip home and she said yea bc ikea candy is the best candy. but i vividly remember standing in the parking lot at night, eatin some of the licorice, lookn up at the night clouds while my ma loaded the trunk, seein the parking lot lights, yea?
cant rlly describe it w/ words, but whaterv
some more chicago memories. one time when i was w/ my ma, we went to chinatown bc duh, and we had dinner at a resturant there, i cant remember what its called rn, but bro it was so frickin good. so anyway ff a year or so and i go to chicago again w/ a small group of kids from a youth group. so we go to this resturant and we all order somthin to share, right? so someone orders bok choy andddddddddd i ate so much frickin bok choy i felt rlly sick and there was a wedding party or somethin goin on. hey now that i think about it this story takes place around thanksgiving, so basically winter
i should rlly go 2 bed, its 2am rn. i told some nice stories, but i rlly gotta sleep now.
wait was keiki the bad guy or were we the bad guy???? bcuz sum ppl are sayin keiki's bad cuz she got powercrazy, but idkk
okay so its 12pm rn, i went to bed and slept.
but anyway, one thing i love about pokemon is the npc dialogue. like sometimes theyll just say the most random stuff and its pretty funny. like in x&y in uhh that fancy hotel in lumiose city, theres a boy on one of the floors (i forgot which one) but you talk to him and hes just like "omg this floor is so smooth i just wanna SLIDE" or somthin like that.
i also love how the most random ppl will say some random philosophical stuff. there was one of those ladies in the tunnels between routes and cities, and she said some stuff about how "tomorrow is the only thing that comes without you doing anything" or somthin like that.
idk i just think the stuff the npcs say is totally wild.
my fav pokemon game is black&white, im coutning them as the same game bc they basically are. but anyway i have white and it was my first pokemon game and i chose tepig. i got abucnh of legendaries bc of that wifi glitch that lets you get any event pokemon, and also ive just been playin forever, ya know? i got my frst shiny in white, it was a shiny solrock, i still have him. then i got a shiny lunatone somehow, i dont remember. maybe my friend have to it me or i found it (unlikely) but whatever. also when i just started the game, i was bored and went on the mystery gift and got a lv50 victini. i hadnt gotten the badge that lets you control lv50 pokemon yet, so i had a rlly hrd time w/ that. but anyway p sure it was my first pokemon to reach lv100. i also just love the whole aesthetic it has. love everything about it. also i got lv100 hydregion from my brother, i dont remember what i traded for it, prolly somthin good. but i got lots of cool pokemon in there. i reset it a while back but i traded all my good/rare/pokemon i wanted to keep, and had my friend hold onto them for abit, then we traded back.
also i like x&y. i used to not like it but ive been playing it alot recently and its pretty fun. im trying to complete my pokedex in that game which is pretty much impossible but ill try to get as much as i can. i rlly like playing online w/ the pss
I LOVE YOU JESUS CHRIIIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST
I DO AND ON THE LAZY DAYS IHONODFNSDFUDVSDVDSHPOIHWPDDJBPSJFSDF
WHAT A BEAUTFIL FACE I HAVE FOUND ON THIS PLACE THAT IS CIRCLING ALL AROUND THE SUN
i spent so much time analyzing the subtext and overarching themes of Victor Hugo's 1831 classic "The Hunchback of Notre-Dame" that I never spent the time to analyze the subtext and overarching themes of my own heart
i will never have the breath support of jeff magnum and that fact makes life a bit more painful
the endless cycleeeeeeee oh god eveyrday is the same!!!!!!!
actully thats not true. here's a story and btw it is sexual so just a warning if yr sensitive 2 that
anyway on thursday (9/5/19) i was sitting in 2nd hour chemistry, right? and in sitting in the back corner of the class, and my seat is facing the wall, and is also facing the other row of seats who face the board, so im perpendicular to them. anyway i look over one sec and ya know what i see???? some doofus kid is totally jackin off in the middle of class!! smh. but anyway he was tryna hide it bc there wasnt any1 sitting next 2 him, but jesus christ!!!!! and it was a popular kid, too, which makes it even more surreal. it was totally NASTY!!!
i keep complaining about everyday being the same and then god says "omg fine if you want somthin interesting so bad, here ya go!" and theres a kid beating his meat in 2nd hour. a monkey's paw.
perhaps there is a lesson to be learnt, dont keep buggin about things 2 happen, bc then stupid things happen. but if there is a lesson im not gonna take it 2 heart and ignore it bc i am the fool
so anyway you can keep reading now if you skipped the last part. but ye besides that, everyday is the same
TWO ONE TWO THREE FOUR
THE ONLY GIRL I'VE EVER LOVEEEED
WAS BORN WITH ROSES IN HER EYEEEES
i wish i could save her in some sorta time machine
know all yr enemies, know who yr enemies AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
everything is boring now, i dont want everything to be boring
i dont want to work EVER!!!!
OH MY GOOOOOOOOD i just want to take a break man but i cant!! like when i finish this year i dont have to take anymore math classes bc sometimes i can be smart, and i brought this up w/ my teacher and i asked her "so yea i dont have to take anymore math right?" and she said "well you gotta take 1 in yr senior year but yea you dont gotta take 1 next year" and i said coolio but then she said ITS NOT A GOOD IDEA TO TAKE A GAP YEAR OH MY GOOOOOOOOOD
its just constant work jussssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst
but after i graduate, its all goodd from here!!!!!! i can just dip outta the country!!!! right????/ wishful thinking!!!
whats likely gonna happen is im gonne do the same thing every1 else does!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! go to a college then get a job then get a house then work more AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA the cycle!!!!! i wanna break the cycle but im scared im gonna be too scared and not do it!!!!!!!!! AND i'll have spent all my time now complaining about everyday being the same and then im gonna grow up and everyday is gonna be even more of the same!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never gonna catch a break, am i??????????? just one loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong rest would be so nice!!!!!!
aaaaaaa i rembr when i was young teachers would say "omg yr gonna be a million things when yr older like a surgeon like a chemist like a doctor" ya know all those sorta jobs and i used to looooove those things like yea man i really wanted to b those things but then AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa what do i do now!!!!! if i became one of those things then guess what thats MORE WORK oh my GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
more work to go throu college then more work to WORK and...... smhhhhh they years start coming and they dont stop coming but instead of years its work
most likely im gonna go 2 college bc im toooooo scared 2 do what i rlly want, then im gonna so much in debt that ill nevr be able to do anything i want, then im gonna be stuck working 4 the rest of my life 2 pay off some DEBTTTTTTTTTTTTT and its just a constant cycle everyday is the same and everyday will stay the same unless i do something!!!!!!!!!!!
i justttttttttttt want a looooooooooooong break from everyythigbbbggggggnndfkgkdjnfgdlkdiughdohfgoiduhfoigbd
wahhhhhht do i even call this feeling is it burnout???? idk man but i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omgggggggggggggggggg who thought this whole system was a good idea in the first place?/???????????????????????????? its allll the saaaaaaaaaameeeeeeeeeeee and AAAAAAAAAAAAA its just the same everyday nothing ever happenssssssssssssssssss
i am going forward but not of my own volition its bc i cant freeze time and just.......... relax for a bit
the days truly start coming and they dont stop coming, they are relentless
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I HATE THISSSSS!!!!!!!!!
GOD IS A PLACE WHERE SOME HOLY SPECTACLE LIES